29 December 2008
* Title... *
Interesting... new post. this is a new post. a new post i am writing. i am writing a new post. new. post.
It's a couple of days before new years and I just thought it would be nice to write a quick summary of my life this past year... seeing as though i havent written a blog posts in a long long long long etc time.
Well... this year was a great leap of improvement on the last one. and on the one before that probably too but if you'd asked me back then I would have said I was having a great time. I passed all my subject, except the one I am doing at summer school, i still have 3 assignments left for that one. I lived with some awesome people this year, met a good new bunch of people, and I think even though i'm further away from the boys now we're still close, and we'll stay that way even though they've decided to move off res. I met a nice boy, who is now my man-friend. He's fantastic and we don't fight and he always knows exactly what to say when I'm feeling bad/annoyed about something even before i bring it up.
Yesterday I bought High School Musical sing it on the Wii which is pretty crap but also awesome at the same time, steph's coming over tonight to play it and drink wine with me. Miss my friends, should invite them over sometime to drink wine with me. Saw the movie twilight yesterday, it's complete crap and just points out how bad the books really are. Very dissappointing seeing as though I thought the books were awesome. I'm supposed to be doing my assignment at the moment, and I have been doing a little bit but i keep getting distracted with this old story that steph and I were writing ages and ages ago and I was reading the blog for it and I miss writing so much that i've been doing some more of it. Man I wish I was any good at it. Maybe I should start reading more.
Lost a lot of money in the financial crisis this year. Me myself lost a bunch and the family lost a lot more than that. We're not in financial trouble or anything but its kinda sad. Although I get sick of people complaining about the crisis. Honestly, markets go up, markets go down, any money you have invested is not 100% secure and if you've balanced your portfolio badly so that you've lost everything then you're really just an idiot. Sorry. Wow i'm going to be a great financial planner when I grow up.
Planning a holiday with caitlin and diane for this time next year, New York, Disney World and maybe London. It is going to be very very expensive and I would love to do it but i'm really not sure how it's going to go. We'll have to wait until next time we have a big chat about it.
Little John is turning 21 in a couple of months and I am trying to make him a present but i've not done anything as of yet because i'm trying to do these assignments and write this story thing and find clothes for work next week. Plus christmas kept me busy. Soon I must yell at michael for not having a birthday party as of yet. Or maybe I could just have a party of my own. A "wilsons second 21st party (not her 22nd)" party. I should really get back to my assignment and don't assume just because i've started blogging today that I will keep doing it. Maybe this is a one-off, maybe it's the rekindling of a past love, I duno. We'll find out later.
09 July 2008
Hey. so blogging eh. interesting.
I know it's been a while. Lol that is rather an understatement, it's actually been 9 months and 8 days... wow, i could have conceived and given birth to a baby in that time. I didn't, but the point is that I could have. I know that the chances of people actually still checking my blog are slim to none at the complete maximum, but at the moment that doesn't matter to me. I just feel like updating my blog because my last post is so shockingly crap that it's making me rather embarassed to be know as the author of. This post is actually going to be very short because i'm typing on my brothers computer and his keyboard is annoying me, maybe i'll write something properly when I get back to canberra and my lappy.
01 October 2007
Hey. Know I haven't posted in a while and i'm sorry, but i've been busy with life and for some silly reason I haven't wanted writing and thinking about life to get in the way of actually living it for once. Odd I know. Just finished putting some tunes on my page, think it's kinda nifty the way they look like an ipod and all that. I know none of you will probably like my music but you can always turn it off if you want. And I like it.
So whats been happening in my life? Well I've been covered with uni work for the past month excluding the week I hit the Gold Coast. The Gold Coast was phantasmagorical. And yes that is a real word. We didn't get as much as we wanted done but somehow we managed to busy ourselves for a whole week. Went to three theme parks, we all (cept bigger john) went to movie world and dreamworld but then everyone went to wet'n'wild on the friday cept case and I who went to Seaworld. We weren't the stupid ones because it was overcast and freezing and Seaworld was much more smarter to go to. Lol. I'm tired. I bought myself a baby polar bear.
12 September 2007
So would you like to know whats been happening with me lately?
Well I got back from the Gold Coast on saturday, went to sydney for two nights and got back to canberra on monday at about 8. Unpacked, cleaned my room, ate my sandwhiches that mummy had made me and fell asleep.
Want to know what the G Coast was like? Well it was bloody fantastic!! I'm not gonna go into big details at the moment because i've told everyone heaps of stuff already and it was a whole week so i've already got confused with my days. I'm wearing my big jacket at the moment. And this past couple of days have been ridiculously difficult. The holiday was just so good that being back and having to go to work and to do uni work sucks.
31 August 2007
Up late. Doing essay. Kinda tired. Stupid path-goal leadership theory.
18 August 2007
* pathetic and cynical. *
I probably only blog when i'm depressed. And I apologise for that but when i'm depressed I like to vent or bitch. And I do assure you that I am happy occasionally, i mean not right at the moment. But occasionally.
I'm really depressed at the moment. And it's shitting me because I have heaps of work to do and I don't have time to have days like today when I do nothing and feel gross and waste time. I don't have any time to waste at the moment.
See we were going to get chinese tonight. I sms'd caitlin yesterday at lunch time and asked her if she wanted to get chinese last night and she said she'd prefer tonight so I said that's fine. But I called her at 6 tonight and she said she didn't want to and that made me grumpy (i know, i'm really selfish) coz I don't actually have any food. So I had some dry nutragrain for dinner because I don't actually have enough foods to make any kind of meal. I had eggs for breakfast/lunch and even then I had to steal someone else's bread from the freezer in the kitchen. I skipped dinner yesterday as well but I figured that'd be okay coz I could have eggs this morning and then chinese tonight. So i'm grumpy. And everybody else piked on the chinese too. And it's heaps far to walk and I didn't particularly want to go by myself.
I'm thinking of not going to the Gold Coast. I know i've paid $122 already for airfares, but I haven't paid for accommodation yet so there is some time to cancel. I just really don't think I can go and sleep in the same room as my ex-boyfriend without wanting something to happen and then be thoroughly dissappointed when nothing happened and then feeling crappy for the entire holiday. And I invited him to my nan's birthday party in sydney on the sunday after but then I sms'd and uninvited him (i know it's rude but it was the right thing to do and he will understand) coz I thought i'd be too weird. So as far as Casey goes I have two options
1) to be in a relationship with him.
2) to never speak to him again.
I'm thinking the second option is the more likely, even though it will be really difficult, especially with him moving back into the building next year. Maybe i'll take a year off next year, work for a while and earn some money. Money is nice. I could move back in with my parents and they could feed me. They haven't called in like a week, last I heard they were in ireland but now i have no idea. Hope they're okay.
I'm still angry at Paul which is annoying the crap out of me coz being angry at somebody really sucks. It's not like he knows i'm angry at him or anything, i'm a good angry person like that.
I'm just so busy at the moment. There are two more weeks of class before we go on holidays. I have two essays due and a test in the last week before break. One essay is almost finished the other is not even started. The test needs lots and lots and lots of study. And when i've done those I have a business law assignment due after the break, a leadership group assignment which is a 2500 word essay due second week of october, test every week in my ob tute, an investments assignment i'm supposed to be doing daily as of this past week, and I also have to go to the doctor, fix my pants, buy sunglasses, get my legs waxed, and somehow learn to feed myself properly. Maybe it doesn't sound like that much to you. But i'm kinda drowning. And Jasha's going out of the country soon and there is no way I can get through all my work to see him before he leaves. It sucks. And I was planning on going to see High School Musical with the girls for my birthday but I don't think I want to do that anymore. I'm having massive money problems at the moment and I don't know how to stop spending.
I just want to not exist for a little while so I can de-stress myself. And I know crying about it doesn't do anything except make me feel worse and give me headaches and make my eyes all red but i'm doing it anyway.
I sat in the library at uni for 6 hours last thursday, a new record for me. I went to the library 4 out of 5 days last week just to get work done, the only reason I didn't go on wednesday is that by the time I got back from work and had something to eat and showered it was 7 and i didn't particularly want to walk up to uni in the dark because, yes, people get attacked on my campus. Oddly enough I don't really mind walking back home at 9 o'clock at night, it's just doing the two-way walk thing that freaks me out.
I have the biggest headache and i've already had two nurofen, i'm seriously thinking of taking another two and washing them down with some vodka.
Chev and John and I hung out on John's bed last night. We tried to pick something to do for about an hour until we just ended up doing stacks-on on John and then we stayed there. Sat around chatting and looking at photos, trying to drink rum straight but it was absolutely disgusting. John had his burbon.
Chev is probably the most creative/resourceful/odd person I know. He made this very strange concoction a couple of days ago, i'm not exactly sure what was in it but it was rum and port in a pumpkin that he had hollowed out. Then you're supposed to leave it in the sun for a couple of days and then drink it. Apparently it's very potent. He couldn't get all the seeds out so you have to drink some and then spit them out. He's also famous for his peanut-butter traps and banana-bombs.
I'm listening to "it's raining men" (the original version) and I have decided that I hate men. They're just not any good. I'm talking about in the boyfriend/lover/significant other capacity, I have plenty of guy friends and I love you all but as partners you guys suck. Okay it's true I have limited experience in this field but pretty much all the guys/potential guys i've been with have just not understood anything about women. And I know that's not their fault and I know women know little about men but i'm still gonna complain.
I can't believe i'm so cynical for someone so young, but love is for losers and I have to say that I am yet to be impressed by any man.
I would really really really just like to have a breakdown about now. Ellie was all depessed last wednesday and she kept saying "everybody hates me" (drunk) and there were people giving her hugs and saying that they didn't hate her and I thought that was nice of them. Cept i'm not allowed to have a break down because I won't let myself . I can't even see my scars from when I used to cut myself ages ago. Feels like forever ago. No need to worry coz I will never do it again now because it's "emo-trendy" and I have this hatred for anything trendy.
Work tomorrow... with fuschia, she's hopeless apparently. Three customers complained about her last week on friday (I wasn't there but I was told) and i've heard about two other complaints on different occasions. Shouldn't be busy though, it's only 5 hours and the extra pay check is needed, rather than just being a nice bonus. Gotta find a new job for next year, dont think Novo's gonna want me back after the christmas break coz they'll have hired someone else. I think mother wants me to pick a shop where I can work at home over christmas. See I would prefer to have my christmas full of lazyness but I spose earning money while i have free time would be smart. Although my main point about a christmas job still stands, public transport sucks in my area, and a (will then be) 20 year old getting dropped to work by her parents is worse than pathetic. Here it's fine because driving isn't an issue and even if I could drive I wouldn't buy a car because I really don't need one. But when i'm at home it just sucks.
Wondering if I can afford to go to Mackay in december for John's birthday... flights probably gonna be heaps expensive but I would really like to go and it is his 21st.
Just played spider solitare for 20minutes... and i still hate the world. Geez if spider solitare didn't cure me I think i should probably try and get some sleep. No encouraging words necessary, I only need me to fix me.
09 August 2007
* Grumpy. Sad. And. Angry. *
You know how in the early years of high school or even in primary school a boy and a girl kinda go out a bit and then one of them doesn't want to go out with the other anymore so they just stop talking to the other person instead of actually having some balls and telling them that they don't want to see them anymore. And usually the person finds out from someone else at school that they've been ditched.
Well i've just been ditched.
And i'm kinda pissed coz he didn't even have the guts to just say, "nah it was just a bit of fun but it's over now". But no, a friend of mine spoke to Paul last night and told me today that paul said it wasn't gonna go anywhere. And that's fine coz I didn't really expect it to go anywhere but it woulda been nice for him to let me know so I wouldn't look stupid in front of all of my friends who are also his friends.
On another note, yesterday morning i woke up with a bad cold (again) so work was horrible but they sent me home early coz it was quiet, so i had a little nap and woke up and then decided to drink... a lot. We played drinking games on r-top and i drank a bottle of white wine there... then i had a glass of goon and blackcurrent juice, then at the lighty i had about five vodka and raspberries, i dropped two of them. One of them was bought for me by the guy next to me at the bar. He told me he was a professional rugby player. I wasn't trying to get him to buy me the drink and i did tell him more than once that he didn't have to. But it was really nice of him. I wore my brown boots which I havent worn before and they didn't hurt or maybe i didn't notice, i didn't wear a jacket to the lighty and i dont remember being cold. But I slipped on the floor at some point because it was slippery and my boots we're slippery too. It was rather embarassing.
I was really really drink. Sent Casey a text saying that he was the guy i wanted, he knew i was drunk, so he replied this morning. He thought I accidentally sent it to him and was trying to send it to paul. I messaged him and told him that yeah i did mean to send it to him but asked him if we could forget about it because i was really drunk. He never replied so now I intend to forget about it.
Woke up at 9:30 this morning. Threw up until 3:30. Ate some pizza at about 7pm. I'm hungry but I still feel a little sick so i'm trying to think of something simple to eat.
And i'm in a shame spiral of asking myself what's wrong with me that he doesn't want to go out with me. Grumpy. Sad. And. Angry. That's me at the moment.
05 August 2007
So i've decided that never again will I date someone who I am friends with, or whom i live with, or whom is a friend of a friend. From now on dating is reserved only for people who I randomly meet on the street.
I'm upset about Paul. He's ignoring me. I left him a message on his room phone two days ago and he hasn't called me back. I was hanging out with Caitlin in John's room two nights ago and whenever he walked past he walked fast and didn't look into the room at all. I'm actually kinda upset. Which is fairly ridiculous because this was never a serious thing and it was just starting out and I was gonna start slow and let it happen and not get totally emotional about the whole thing. The last time he called me was thursday morning at 2am. He put on his accent and said his normal "do you want me to come over and say hello?" which in paul language means "can i come over and we can have sex coz im drunk and horny?" He called me about 8ish times. I picked up about 4 of those times. Twice he got to the point of asking if he could come over. 4 times i hung up on him. I understand how that could have hurt his feelings and he may not want to speak to me. But he was booty calling me which is something that i do NOT do and I don't remember the last time he called me when he was sober. So i'm feeling rather hurt and used and rejected and it's ridiculous because i'm always on r-top and he's always on r-top and neither of us live there. I just want him to call me even if it's just to say that all he wants is some fun and then i would say well i hate having fun and then we could go our separate ways. That would be fine. It's this sitting here and thinking that he is complete asshole who won't call me that's killing me. I'm even doing the stupid girl thing and thinking "what's wrong with me that he doesn't want to make a little effort and maybe hang out with me once and a while?".
And it's the same situation as with casey last year coz paul and i have all the same friends... actually paul is better friends with jeff, just like casey was, and good friends with big john, just like casey was, so there is no way i can escape him and i don't even have anyone to flirt with to make him jealous coz i really can't think of anybody i want to flirt with at the moment.
Today was my first day in 2 weeks that i haven't had either work or uni and i've completely wasted the day hoping paul would call me. I am supposed to be better than that. And it sucks too because the more I think of how wrong paul is for me the more i think of how good casey and i were and how much i screwed that up. so i'm making myself feel even worse about the entire situation. and i'm going away with case in a month and he said he wants to give me a big hug and he said that he should be fine with me being around even if he's had 20 drinks but i know that i won't be fine if i've had 20 drinks. actually if i've had 20 drinks i would probably be trying to kiss everyone.
somebody wrote "I heart you" on the whiteboard on my door which was nice, it was either chev or akemi i think so that made me feel very good about myself... or just less bad about myself. i keep venturing up to r-top in the hope of running into paul but there are always stacks of people around so it's not like i could yell at him anyway... I totally should though...
I've been over-uni-working myself lately. Here's my schedule
Monday - Work 11 to 4, Uni 4:30 to 8pm
Tuesday - Uni 9:30 to 6:30pm
Wednesday - Work 12 to 5:30pm
Thursday - Class 1:30 to 2:30pm, Library 2:3o to 7pm
Friday - Class 12:30 to 2:30pm, Library 2:30 to 5pm
Saturday - Work 12 to 5pm
That was what I did this past week. Yeah I actually sat in the Library until 7pm last thursday... and my class finished early so I was there for 5 hours. Almost killed myself. And I still feel behind with all my assignments, I have a presentation to do this tuesday that i've barely done and have to finish tonight because tomorrow I won't be home unil 8:15pm and then once i've had dinner and wound down a bit from the day it's like 10pm and i'm exhausted. And I have two essays that i have not started due in 3 weeks and an assignment that i have to progressively do every day that starts tomorrow and is due after the holidays.
I like living in the library. See I had planned this semester perfectly, Cassie told me that Gina was gonna be working wednesdays so wednesday was gonna be my free day where i could go to the library and do all my tute work for the week. This would mean that I would have to work friday nights or saturdays which I said would be fine. But because the city store doesn't have enough staff at the moment Gina isn't working wednesdays yet so somehow i've gotten roped into doing mondays, wednesdays AND doing saturdays at the moment. Last week I worked sunday too which was a shocker. I'm spending heaps of money at the moment so working extra is good because i'm getting the cash but my bank account still seems to keep going down. It's very frustrating. I dont' know where all the money is going. But i'm gonna have to start saving coz this QLD holiday is gonna cost a bomb in grog money i reckon. Accommodation is gonna sweep my bank account empty so i may have some problems. I think i'll just have to shop-smart from now on. No junk food, no takeout, no grog money until the holiday. I should be able to manage it alright.
02 August 2007
* Mr. Emmett *
I've kinda realised that Paul thinks i'm just a booty call. Last time he called me was Friday at 3am when he was pissed. Then he called me at 2am this morning while drunk again. He called me about 8 times. I picked up about 4 times and hung up on him all 4 times. He finally got the picture and let me sleep. I think he might be an ass. And now im feeling kinda stupid and a bit used and maybe hurt. I would really like to find me a nice boy who would actually take me out on a date maybe... i've been on 3 dates in my lifetime, all with Casey over our 7 month relationship. Lets see if I can beat that record with the next guy.
So yeah i'm kinda sad. And embarassed coz I know little John expected this and big john probably did too.
On a (possibly) positive note I chatted to Case for a couple of hours last night. I was all upset so I called him and we talked about all things interesting. It was nice to talk to him again. I hate the fact that I still miss him bucketloads. It's been ages and there are other guys around but im still thinking about him most nights. He messaged me night before last to tell me that his sister had a baby. A healthy baby boy called Emmett Casey Hamilton. I bought him a puppy teddy after work yesterday and im gonna send it to Casey today or tomorrow.
I'm gonna go to the library after my tutorial today and sit there for a number of hours doing my uni work. I don't know why I have so much uni work, it just seems to be piling up. I need to do research for my Leadership group assignment before next monday. I need to do my law presentation which is due next tuesday. I need to do ALL my readings and tutorial questions for next week. And I need to pick what shares i'm gonna do for my Investments assignment. And I have millions of other assignments that I haven't even looked at which is completely stupid because they're all gonna be due soon. Can't believe it's only a month before the mid-semester break. Scary.
12 July 2007
* dishwasher *
bored bored bored...
i think it's funny that the word bed looks like a bed :) hehehehe. yeah i know. small things are amusing me... yesterday i spent an hour playing with bubble wrap and laughing in john's room because i was so excited for any kind of company :)
john's gone to the snow today so i cleaned my room (again), made food, washed my dishes about three times, cleaned my room again, bought my last text book, filed a maintenance report coz my fridge light is broken, cleaned my room again, had a little nap, had dinner, and now im blogging, doing sudoku, drinking hot chocolate, and watching volcano, and im about to do my dishes again.
i love doing dishes, it's totally theraputic :)
09 July 2007
* croutons *
I feel exhausted. And it's annoying because I really haven't done too much today. I worked 11-4 and then had to run errands after work. I put my pants in @ the pants fixer-upper people, dropped photos in @ kmart, bought notebooks in kmart for class next week and then did some groceries. My room is hideously messy and I have to do washing but I don't have any money on my laundry card :( so i'll have to go do that tomorrow. Dishes to do. Gargleblerg. Hung out with Paul last night, watched a movie, was nice, and fun.
Bought mummy a present for when she comes to visit tomorrow. Not sure what i'm going to have for dinner tonight... salad possibly, or pizza, or pasta... very italian of me. :)
07 July 2007
* Strabngeish *
So my uh, kinda one-night stand sent me a message on facebook yesterday asking for my extension number, he then called me later and came over and we watched friends. So maybe it's not a one-night stand after all. You never know.
05 July 2007
* Chesty *
Just to get this stuff off my chest.
I've been throwing up all day. I feel very very sick. Today I have eaten one piece of toast with butter on it and half a glass of juice. I'm kinda starving but not sure if I'll be able to eat anything else without being sick.
Yes I am hungover. I've never been this hungover again. I wss fine until 2pm, then I was sick. I got into this good routine though, i'd be sick, feel fine after throwing up, go back to my bed and fall asleep for a while. Then i'd wake up about half an hour later, feeling sick again, throw up in my bucket, feel much better, roll over and go to sleep again.
See yesterday was just really boring, I watched gilmore girls and X-men and stayed in bed all day. It was ridiculous. So anyway Amy and Ben were in the kitchen chatting around dinner time and amy was up for some drinks. So we both had dinner and started drinking. I drank a bottle of white wine (by myself) and got very chatty. Maki sat with us for a while too and we just talked and talked and talked. Then Ben came through the floor and we went upstairs with him. Sat and chatted with a group of people, bout 10 of us and I didn't really know any of them very well. It was good though, played "I never" for a little while. Paul and Ash came up at some point. I offered to get them vodka so we went down to my room. I remember checking the time on my phone before 12 but Amy said she came downstairs at about 2 and it was just after i'd left with the boys. I was intending to go back upstairs but Amy came down and i really couldn't be bothered. Ash drew cartoons on my whiteboard. We listened to my Phantom of the Opera cd for a bit coz ash wanted to. Somehow my pretty-much-full 1 Litre bottle of 50% vodka is now less than half full and there's an empty carton of juice in my bin (not even juice that i buy so i have no idea where that came from) and I don't even remember drinking any vodka. But my vomit kinda tasted like vodka after a while so I must have. Ash left at some point, but I have no idea when. I was naked when I woke up and there was a boy in my bed. I didn't wake up all shocked or anything, I did remember that stuff had happened, I just don't really know what. I'm sure we didn't actually have sex though. The morning wasn't weird at all though. He stayed till 2 and we chatted and kissed and stuff, I do believe I was still rather drunk. And he's not a completely random guy or anything, we're friends and i've always had a bit of a crush on him.
So put your hand up if you think i'm a slut now?
Okay im gonna go steal Rhys's phone now.
Oh + I messaged Timmy last night, nothing important.
28 June 2007
* I would go on a hiatus if I could spell it. *
Not sure if i'm ready to write about this.
Case isn't coming back to uni. He met a girl while he was away and they're going to try and make it work. It's good. I'm happy for him and I hope he's happy. I'm a veteran on being unhappy so I don't particularly care about my own well-being. Not exactly sure what to do now though. I've been crossing out the men in my life. I wonder what it's like to be single again. Think i'll find out.
Might not be blogging for a while.
26 June 2007
* fingers aren't doing the walking *
Tell me what to do.
This is called honesty. I'm trying it on.
Casey wrote on facebook that he's going to reject his offer to come back to rez next semester. I'm assuming that he's not coming back to uni. His status says:
"Case is in Munich. Going to reject his rez offer to pursue matters of the heart, but that would be no different from going back to rez anyways."
I'm not exactly sure what he means but for some stupid reason when I read it I burst into tears for an hour or two. I'm really not sure what i'm going to do without him around. Even if he's not my boyfriend just having him around made everything okay. See i've never had very good coping skills. And I just had the worst semester of my life that I almost didn't make it through. I'm terrified that next semester will be the same, only worse because it'll be crap for longer. And if that happens i'm not sure if i'm gonna make it through to christmas.
I want to ask him to come back so bad, but I know I have no right to. I don't want to ruin his holiday by making him think about me or anything but if I want to tell him how I feel I have to before he comes back, coz it'll be too late by then.
So how do I feel?
Well I don't even know. I know I miss him. And I reckon he and I could be pretty close to perfect if we tried. If we actually had a go at a functional relationship where we were in the same city and more mature and comfortable with each other than we were last year. I guess what i'm saying is that I want to give it a go. But that means he has to forgive me. And I'm not sure if he will.
I slept today. I went to bed at 11:30 last night, woke up at 11:30 this morning. Had breakfast, had lunch, then got all sad and went to lie in my bed at about 3, fell asleep till 5ish. Now it's 9:04pm and i'm thinking of going to bed coz I don't have anything better to do. Don't worry i'm not normally this lazy.
I haven't blogged about saturday night... I went out with Kath into the city. It was just the two of us which was nice, we drank and danced and danced and danced. Seriously we danced for like 5 hours straight. I gave a guy my number which was stupid but I was fairly tipsy at the time. How do you lose a guy in a bar? Argh I couldn't do it. I didn't try tooo hard but I did try. But I did get a drink bought for me which was nice. He hasn't called (thank god).
I now have to add two more names to my list. It's up to 7 now. One name i'm not completely sure of (which is funny and slutty) but I think I know it.
Wow talk about split personalities. For 10 minutes I'm writing about how upset I am about my ex-boyfriend not coming back to town then I suddenly switch to the random guys I kissed at a bar on saturday night. Well I do keep telling you guys that i'm crazy. Maybe now you will believe me.
