10 June 2006
* My boyfriend is a fucking asshole. *
My boyfriend is a fucking asshole. Wow, it seems like i'm angry.
Things were fine yesterday, absolutely fine, things were fine this morning when he came to visit. Things were fine this afternoon when he dropped in for a minute, I have no fucking idea what his problem is.
I called him about half an hour ago, he wasn't very talkative, I asked him what was up but his answer was nothing. I asked if i could come visit for a minute coz I knew something was wrong but he wasn't giving me any indication. He said that was fine. I visited, sat next to him on the bed, kissed him on the cheek to say hi, he didn't move. He was throwing a ball at the wall and watching tv. So I sat with him for as long as I could handle it. Tried to talk to him during the ads but he wasn't paying me any notice whatsoever. The phone rang. He picked it up and chatted to Nunny for a while, he's laughing and being all normal. He comes back and lays on the bed. Taking up most of the room might I add, i'm only half on the bed and half keeping myself up somehow. So I tell him i'm going to get more work done and I leave without kissing him or even looking at him.
I get back to my room (where I am at the moment). I wait a minute, am upset a bit, then I call him. I ask if he has a problem with me or he's just in a shitty mood. He keeps saying "forget about it". Does he not realise that this was my entire problem with the relationship. This was the reason we broke up the many times we did. He has a problem with me, that makes me upset, but he won't tell me what the actual problem is, just tells me "it's nothing". Fuck, he's a bitch.
So after the part of the conversation where he tells me that he wasn't in the mood to talk to me specifically tonight for no apparent reason there was a giant pause where I just hung up. Havent spoken to him since. I don't think he'll drop round... would be the nice thing to do. I like to have my confrontations while i'm still angry about the subject... and while I still remember.
On a stranger note Benny's got three friends up for the weekend, they were rolling joints in the common room at about 1pm today. Later tonight, about 5ish I sat in the common room with fletch and one of them for a while. Benny and another came back in and we all just sat around, they were still high. Fletch and I go study economics, at some point I go to the bathroom. I run into one of the guys, he's like "you're hot. I really want you, can I have you?" "Sorry, i have a boyfriend" "can i have you in secret?". Oh and when I told him I was going to the bathroom he asked if he could come into the cubicle with me. Very strange. But amusing.
Studied economics with fletch tonight. Was good actually, he knows most of the stuff, i've got to watch a lot of my lectures still, but I think i'll start somewhere further along the course.
In summary: My boyfriend is a moody asshole.
08 June 2006
* Personality Kissing *
Okay so I should really bite the bullet and write about what's been happening with me lately. Well actually I should be studying for my 9am exam tomorrow morning but eh.
So Op Shop Ball, lots and lots of fun! I'd been in such a 'i wish i were back in sydney' mood the days leading up to the ball (because of casey) that I was soooooo excited to see the boys! The ball was at a place called The Dek which is actually a pub/bar about 10 minutes away from the University. We all piled into buses in the Arcott carpark and went on our merry way. Damian, John, John and Jeremy didn't come coz they're annoying. Meh to them.
I remember having numerous conversations with Jasha before the night where he maintained that he would NEVER dance. And guess what he did after he'd had a couple of beers in him? Danced! =) And Terry danced too! It was great. I danced with Ricky at some point and he was either kissing or nuzzling my neck (I wasn't sure). Casey was rather upset by this apparently (he told me after). So there's more dancing, at some point I step on glass and know that my foot's bleeding but don't do anything about it. Caitlin and I consume a rather substantial amount of alcoholic beverages throughout the night.
Casey asked me to dance. I think Caitlin took my handbag from me which was good coz I kept dropping it all the time. I had decided by this point that I wanted to get back together with Casey, I just had to let him know I was keen on the idea. I was very drunk.
It's been a while since this stuff happened and i'm beginning to get confused.
The night before the ball I sent Casey a voicemail saying Happy Birthday when it went to midnight, I also sent him a sms. He was out partying but when he got home (about 2:30am) he called me and I went up to watch a movie with him. Purely a friends thing. We watched the Notebook. John came in before we'd started it (he'd been out at the bar with Casey), casey went to the bathroom and John says to me "You
totally want to get back with him". Lol.
So anyway we just watched the Notebook and both fell asleep in it. I wandered back to my room at about 6am. Nothing dirty happened.
After the op shop ball I got home, made tin spaghetti (as much as sticking it in the microwave constitutes 'making') and got into my Pjs. Casey calls, he seems suprised that i'm actually home. Neither of us want to go to bed so I ask if he wants to come down and watch a movie or something. We put on the 40 year old virgin but neither of us was really awake enough to pay attention so we pretty much just fell asleep. I rolled over and kissed him. He kissed me back. Then he told me I shouldn't have done it because he really likes me. We go back to bed. I get up, grab my water and tell him i'm going to get a drink. I sit in the corridoor outside my room for about 15 minutes or so. After I go back inside and fall asleep I wake up. (wow, thats totally the most impressive sentence i've ever written. Just a side note: my english is mormally better than this... much better, it's just that I don't make any effort here, I just need to get my point across). So there is more kissing. Etc etc. And now we're back together.
And that is more detail than you all ever wanted to have about my personal life.
05 June 2006
* Goonies *
I moved my blog away... but now i've moved it back. I had a fucking fantastic weekend... I think.
I don't want anybody to be disappointed in my decision to get back together with Casey. I'm really happy at the moment, and my only worry is that people will think I made the wrong decision and judge me for it. I am a girlfriend.
So the op shop ball was friday night. Jasha and Terry came and hung out beforehand while Caitlin and I got ready. The ball itself was fun, I think. I didn't eat much before and has quite a few glasses of wine and orange juice so I was very very happy.
Danced a lot, got my foot covered in blood coz I stepped on glass, my thumb was bleeding too. Neither of them hurt, probably coz of all the goon i had consumed.
I'll rehash the details later... if i feel like it.
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
