Im getting kinda scared. You see, when i'm with my boyfriend there is no place I would rather be. We've been spending copious amounts of time together this past week and we both know it's affecting our work. I missed class on monday to spend more time with him. It's absolutely ridiculous. I hate the fact that my work is suffering because of him, and his work is suffering because of me, but that still isn't enough motivation for me to go back to my room and do work.
I know on this blog i've really written the worst things about him. You have to understand that most of the words on this blog are me complaining. I leave out most of the good stuff. And that's why I havent written much lately, coz things are going good.
Thursday night wasn't too good. I wasn't going to go to the bar but it was the last uni bar for this half of the semester and it was a traffic-light party so I decided to go. Caitlin wasn't there. I walked up with the boys. Case was very very drunk... his group won trivia last week so they won a $100 bar tab so they just kinda kept drinking. I was fairly drunk myself. At about 1 Case asks me if we can go home. So the two of us leave. He fell down about five times on the walk home. And I had a lot of trouble getting him off the ground. Some guy and his girlfriend were walking home too and they helped me get him up. I called John (I was bawling) and he came to help but he was fairly drunk himself. Perhaps moreso than me. We lost John along the way but I got Case home, I didnt make it to his room coz he said he wanted to stay in mine. So I got him into my bed, put a bucket and a bottle of water next to him, and he was asleep.
I took my Pyjamas and his keys and my keys and my phone and went upstairs, got changed, sat in the R-top common room with the boys for a little while and then went to bed in Case's room.
John was really good because I was freaking out a lot that night. I was practically crying all the way home because Casey was heavy and I was angry at him for having to look after him when I was drunk myself and I knew he wouldn't remember it at all in the morning. And I barely saw him at the bar that night, he was walking around and I was sitting with the boys most of the time. Actually he told all the boys that he would fuck them up if they messed with me. Matt told me that just before I took Casey home. And the boys told me in the common room later.
But John sat with me in the garden on the way home and told me to calm down and take a minute to think and relax. And when I got back to my room he sat outside with me while Casey was sleeping and talked me out of yelling at Casey and dumping him first thing in the morning.
I think John's the only one of the boys who actually supports my relationship with Casey. Adam doesn't like Casey, and I think the other boys think that we fight too much and that he's too old for me. John's told me on multiple occasions that he thinks Casey and I are really good for each other. It's really nice to hear. I know Caitlin supports the relationship for my sake but she doesn't see us getting married and having babies together. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.
This has turned into a massive Casey post. I'm sorry. But now that I have a little more insight into what my friends think about the relationship I really feel like I have nobody to talk to about it.
I woke up yesterday to this loud banging on the door. It was Case, knocking on his own door because I had taken his keys. He remembered nothing that happened at the bar so I filled him in on most of the details. I didn't tell him about the crying and I asked John not to tell him either.
20 August 2006
* dont have any panadol *
I've had the worst headache all day. It's rather annoying since I really have to get some work done. But I don't think the work is helping much. So anyway...
I had a really good night last night. Daniel took me to his ADFA formal. Twas on the lake, very fancy, I wore a pretty dress and so did all the other girls. I made a couple of new friends, Tegan, Julz, Dave, Georgie... I danced like a crazy person after my third glass of wine. Dessert was absolutely delicious. I really think I need to catch up with Daniel more often, we're in the same city and everything, and i've only seen him twice. It's fairly ridiculous.
My head hurts like a crazy person.
My Photo Album
"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"
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"Glacier Climbing in NZ"
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"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"
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"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"
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"The Soda Fountain"
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"Hole in the Rock"
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"Old Cromwell Town"
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"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"
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"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"
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"Ghost Drop Girls"
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"Lounging around @ SusSEX"
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"Rosie Hammocking"
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"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"
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"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"
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"The boys bonding"
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"Caitlin & Matthew"
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"The family @ Mitch's 21st"
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"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"
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"The boys visiting Berra"
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"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"
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"Drunk on Midori"
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"Boring Bar Night"
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"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"
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"Ressies Ball '06"
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"P-top common room"
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"Mitchie's Graduation!!"
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"The 'rents were so proud"
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"Smiling Faces"
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"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"
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"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"
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"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"
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"Caitlin Snorting"
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"John & Diane @ Moose"
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"Traffic Light Party"
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"Moustache Men"
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"Pizza Boy"
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"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"
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"Johnny Boy"
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"Checkers after I.Love"
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"P.A.D"
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"Ben & Timmy"
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Tunes to keep you busy
A Quick Wilson Quiz
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
my name is wilson
I'm one of those people who prefers to be out the back of the shoe store packing away boxes and ordering shoes rather than serving customers. I'm allergic to nothing and yet
I avoid things that i'm not used to. I fell in love once and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I hold on to stereotypes of myself from years
ago not realising how much i've changed. I've taken two steps toward being independent but am nowhere near the stage most people are at my age. I crave attention but at
the same time hate getting it. I like my privacy and my space and miss having a big backyard to wander in. I want to do everything but make no effort to do anything
and then complain about it. I love to laugh and to make other people laugh at me. I can't stand being serious or when somebody else is crying and I can't do anything
to make them feel better. I want to be held when I cry. I want to be spoilt and to lie in bed forever with someone who i've given my heart to.
