10 March 2006
* Dirty Doctors and Naughty Nurses *
* explanation *
I never read over my old blog posts until they're at least a few months old. But this morning I read over my previous post and figured I should do some explaining.
I want to talk to Casey.
How annoying is that? I just want to go to his room and sit on his bed next to him and talk about nothing in particular. But I can't. He really doesn't want to talk to me at the moment. I told him about Damian. There's something about Casey but I just can't lie to him, normally i'm all good with the lying but with him it just doesn't work. I feel like he can completely see through me all the time.
So anyway I was up at 7:15 this morning. No hangover. Casey called at 9:30 and we talked about stuff and then he came down here to use the internet and we talked about more stuff and then I told him about Damian and then there was no more talking. Then he left. I called about 20minutes after and said sorry.
Now we're gonna pause this right here and i'm going to explain something to my hoards of avid readers. I absolutely NEVER say sorry. It's just not something I do. I've said sorry to my Dad after a fight once but only because mum told me I should and I expected my Dad to say sorry back. He didn't. So me actually calling Casey up and doing this whole speech about being sorry and the fact that I don't plan on repeating the action was a big thing, at least in my book.
He had nothing to say to my apology so I hung up and have only seen him once since. I was heading out of the building and he was going into the building. The conversation went like this.
Him: "Hey"
Me: "Hey"
Him: "How are you?"
Me: "Kinda tired, and yourself?"
Him: "How do you think?"
I was on my way up to see Caitlin and check my mailbox as I passed him. I was almost at the mailboxes when I saw this guy who looked like Rishi and i'm like "omg I wish all my friends were here". Coz all I need right now is a hug, a physical, not metaphorical, not cyber, hug from a real person who cares about me and all that.
Got an email from my parents this morning. They're on their way to the falklands or something at the moment. I havent spoken to them in ages.
Damian just signed into msn. So he's awake then. But i'm appearing offline as usual so he doesn't know i'm on.
Jeff is often on the Uni Radio station right, and he's got this ex-girlfriend who used to live in Arscott but now lives up at UV. Anyway, he absolutely hates her. I think the story goes that she slept with someone the day after they broke up or something. Or thats just what I heard from John and Nunny. So anyway people have been going up to this girl and calling her a whore recently because Jeff has said on the radio that he'll buy you a beer if you call her a whore. I think it's a little unfair but I admit that I have no idea of the real situation.
Meanwhile i've been listening to static on the radio for the past hour. Interesting.
I'm tossing up between cleaning up my room and doing some work in here on my bed, or going down to the lake and doing some work there. It's a dilemma. See if I work here then I may fall asleep but if I go to the lake then I may get sunburnt.
I need comfortable places. Like when I was at home if I needed somewhere to go I would go down the bush, or lie on my brother's bed, or even go sleep on the bunks if I really wanted. So when I got here I needed somewhere comfortable to be. That place pretty much ended up being Damian's room. I love his doona and his bed is comfortable. But I kinda ruined most of that last night so I need somewhere else to go. I'm also kinda comfortable in the green room now, as long as nobody else is in there, well I mean people I don't know.
Possibly I could call Adam and ask if he wants to play pool. I hate to disturb him while he's trying to work but I think I really need some company and he's my Point-of-call at the moment.
So the plan for yesterday was for Caitlin to go have a shower, then come back and her and I would cook burgers and straighten her hair and get ready in our outfits and all that. Then we'd go down to Damian's room and watch Lost and the Amazing Race and start drinking, and after the Amazing Race we'd go up to the Bar.
Well Caitlin didn't actually get down here until 8:30 so by the time we'd got ready and were starting to cook it was like 9:15. We ate our burgers in Damian's room and then went and washed up and all that. We missed most of the Amazing Race coz we had to finish getting ready. We'd finished our first drinks pretty quickly and so the two of us had to go up to my room to get more. When we got there we were ambushed. Four girls from my floor followed us into my room and sat down and started talking to us. I know most of them, Ellen is my neighbour, I say hey to Jolly and Liz in the corridoor when I pass them and Amy introduced herself. She asked why I was so shy. And suddenly the conversation moved to me having multiple boys in my room and having kissed them. Liz was like "so whats going on with you and Case?" and I was totally shocked that she had any idea, like we weren't that obvious. Okay so yes Ellen saw us at my door one time but that was about it really.
So apparently they thought I was going to get together with Fletch (my neighbour) but he's also in love with Adria. And they thought I was making out with Casey and Fletch-look-alike (Damian). I told them I was NOT making out with Damian and then two minutes later he called to ask where Caitlin and I had gotten too. Ellen stole the phone and order him and Adam to come up here so they did. I was suprised, Damian NEVER comes up to my room anymore, he's seen it like once before.
Caitlin and I were also introduced to Tom the RA. He was dressed as Dr. Harry Cooper. I havent spoken about Tom before I dont think... anyway he's gorgrous. Lol. So... uh... yeah he was pretty drunk and took about 7 tries to remember Caitlin's name. Apparently he lived in my room two years ago which is probably why I see him hanging around our floor quite a lot. He told us to talk to him later at the bar and we did. Turns out he's doing the exact same degree i'm doing at the moment and he said he'd be happy to help me out. Cool.
Who else did we see at the bar? Um... I spoke to Sam and his friend whom Damian and I played pool against at the Lighthouse one night. I remember Sam's name coz he's an Arscott man but his friend isnt.
Caitlin and I were waiting at the bar and trying to find some guy to buy our drinks for us (coz then we don't have to pay, duh). There was a guy dressed as Dr. Pepper but he was too drunk to offer, he kept looking at me tho =S. But there was another guy at the bar next to me who I just started chatting to. He was nice. I ordered his drinks coz it was cheap drinks before midnight and we got served at like 11:57.
Fletch and Damian played pool at the bar, Jeremy did too. I think they lost every game they played but meh.
I had a total of four (there was a centimeter left of my last one that I threw out coz we were gonna leave but almost four) drinks last night. I had three Smirnoff's which are 1.9 standard drinks each and a cruiser which i'm not sure about. I wasnt even overly dizzy or anything. I felt mostly fine.
Caitlin said Damian will probably remember the kiss last night. She said coz he's been waiting for it he's unlikely to forget. I hope he does remember because if he didn't I would feel guilty until I told him that it did happen.
Jeff never looks at me. Okay so he's looked at me once in like three whole situations. When Casey and I were in Casey's room and Jeff and Logan knocked on the door, Jeff didn't even look at me once. Then later hanging out in the common room he didn't give me a glance. Once, last night when he was giving me chips he looked at me. It just makes me worry. It's like a "what do you know what you can't look me in the eye?" situation.
* Breakup *
I dont think I wanna blog about this. Broke up with Casey. Well... not officially or anything but it was pretty obvious that things weren't gonna progress after I saw him with not one but TWO girls tonight. Charming. Oh well... Yeah I know, I kissed Damian. He probably won't remember and i'm not planning on doing it again but I was pretty shitfaced. Yeah I know, I go to university and suddenly become this slut who goes out with a boy for two weeks and then kisses another boy. It's ridiculous. Caitlin was amazing though. I don't want to sleep in my room tonight, coz Casey's slept in there. But I can't sleep in Damian's room coz it's just not comfortable. So I don't know what to do. No doubt Caitlin's asleep by now coz Damian and I walked her back to UV over an hour ago. Since then we've played pool and hung out in R-top coz I was waiting for Casey to come back so I could kick his arse. Jeff gave me chips though which was nice. Okay so they were gross chips. But still I thought it was nice. Yeah I know, sitting by my window waiting for Casey to walk past at 4:30 in the morning isn't the best idea. But I was taught (or told off Television) that it's not good to go to bed with unresolved issues and i've really been trying that.
Just called John. Yeah i'm still half drunk (I had four drinks tonight, a cruiser, and three smirnoffs) and I thought it would be funny to wake him up. I know Dirt said that the best thing after a bad night is to have a good sleep but I really don't want to go to bed right now.
Tonight was naughty nurses and dirty doctors at the Uni bar and I actually dressed up and everything. Casey wasn't gonna be there coz he had a dinner but I saw him there later so he must have finished by then. He was pretty drunk by the time I spoke to him and he told me to come find him later. Caitlin and I did like two laps of the entire bar looking for him under the knowledge that Jeff said he was probably passed out somewhere. John found him with some girl. He saw me and he was holding her hand and he said that i'd been ignoring him all night, when actually i'd been looking for him for the past hour when he must have been on the dancefloor with some skank.
NB: I only mean the term skank as derogatory towards Casey himself, I'm sure the girl was lovely.
So anyway Caitlin and I had to go to the bathroom anyway and it looked like we were following them but we actually had to go. After they were gone. Later we saw him whispering in the ear of another girl and I really wanted to leave. Okay actually the first thing I wanted to do was to find Damian. Caitlin threw out her alcohol and walked me back down to Arscottt and I called Damian on the way and he talked to Caitlin and apparently he ran all the way from the Uni bar to Arscott for me. So anyway I tried sleeping on his bed for a while but that didn't work. So then we walked Caitlin back to UV so she could go to bed. Then I went back to Damian's room and that's where I kissed him (it was fairly awful, turns out Casey is a wonderful kisser) but then I went back to my room. I forgot my pillows so I went back down to get them but then I couldn't get into the corridoor so I banged on his window and challenged him to a game of pool. That's when John came back and watched us play until we finished and he offered to take me to Casey's room so I could find him (coz I can't get into the corridoor without a key for that floor) but he wasn't there so Damian and I sat with Jason and Jeff and Ricky and Josh and Bec and... yeah thats about it... for a while until I got so tired and went and got my pillows from Damian's room and now i'm here... blogging... at 4:36am in the morning.
Okay so it's not like I expected it to last. He was the one talking about telling the grandkids and us going to Paris and all that. The part that bugs me is the fact that he seemed to like me much more than I liked him, and still he ended up cheating on me. What gives? Anyway. I'm okay with it. I think if I hit him and maybe ask Jeff for some backstabbing to be done over the Uni Radio i'll be totally fine.
And i'm not going out with Damian now.
08 March 2006
* a bagillion *
I'm gonna do a Food Stocktake
Fridge:
- half a centimeter of green cordial
- three raspberry cruisers
- two smirnoff blacks
- 8 slices of cheese
- 1.5 litres of tropical juice
Freezer:
- empty
Cupboard:
- two packers of 2minute noodles
- one tin of chicken and sweet corn soup
- one microwave pasta snack
- four snack boxes of cereal
I finally threw out my carrot today. =( And my milk which expired on the third but I didn't realise until yesterday =S.
I shared one of those noodle thingeys that u put boiling water in with Case yesterday and it was quite nice so I might buy some of them next time I go shopping. I did the washing last night so I wouldn't have to do it today. =) Woo! Go me!
I really have to get some work done. I have like a million assignments to do. Annoying!
06 March 2006
* labour *
It's weird but I feel really comfortable here at uni at the moment. Went out to dinner at the labour club with Caitlin, Damian, Shannon and (red-head) John. I got the chicken... again. And this time I saved $2 and didn't buy a drink. =) Wooo! Go me!
* Bright. *
You entertain ideas. And then the ideas become thoughts. And then the thoughts become feelings.
Alcohol Stocktake in Fridge:
- three raspberry cruisers
- two smirnoff blacks
Caitlin and I were going through Dan Murphy's looking for some Champagne the day before last and we saw the giant crates they have of grog. So I think next time we go grog shopping we're gonna buy a case and share it between us and maybe shannon if she wants. Hopefully we'll get smirnoff black. 24 bottles at like $65. So if you work it out it's about $2.70
* Abrupt *
I think I have class at 3:30. I think. I'm not too sure. Actually i'm pretty sure I just haven't checked my timetable more than four times today so i'm getting a little anxious.
Birthday dinner for Damian went very well yesterday. Most of the planning went to hell but it turned out good in the end. He was all suprised. I couldn't do any work at all yesterday before the party so after I called Damian to ask if he had a good time and he invited me down so I took my text book and did some work in his room while he was doing some of his homework and talking on msn.
Lol. When we were getting ready for the dinner yesterday at Caitlin's place Caitlin says to me [indicating Shannon] "Tell her about Bryce". And Shannon says "omg there's another one?" Lol. Nah.
On Thursday, the evil bad day and only day since i've been here that I have actually cried, after Adam and I left the uni bar apparently Damian was drunk and telling Caitlin all this stuff. Like how he wanted to break Caitlin and her boyfriend up. And how he was jealous of me and Casey and didn't know what to do. He said he was trying to send signals and Caitlin told him that I got the signals but it was too late. I don't know how much of it he remembers. I havent seen much of him the past couple of days, not including the party and then hanging out after the party.
Last night he asked me if I was supposed to be spending time with Casey and i'm like "uh? right at this moment? I actually have no idea where he is". He said that I seem to spend like no time with Casey and much more time hanging out in Damian's room. I had to think about it a bit. But it's not actually true. I watched the Oc with Case on tues, then hung out with him later that night too, I don't remember about wednesday, thursday I saw him at the uni bar and then spoke/argued with him later that night, then we hung out for the rest of the night. Then on fri we went on our 'semi-date' (I call it 'semi-date' coz we kinda weren't 'together' when we went on it but got back together after the movie) and watched Star Wars in my room. Then on Saturday we watched phone booth and the end of the bourne identity in his room. See... hanging out does happen.
But I didn't speak to him at all yesterday, I left him a joke on his voicemail and got a sms reply but that was about it.
Couldn't concentrate at all this morning in my lecture. It's getting really bad. And my tutor is also my lecturer so over time she's sooooo gonna start recognising that i'm the person yawning through the lectures.
Ooh phone is ringing. It was Chole. Talking about some kind of work stuff we have to do. Argh. Funfun fun. I forgot I have to read a case study on Gulf Air. Fun fun fun.
05 March 2006
* Men in uniform = yum *
I had this dream last night that I was back in my house and I had to run around and get all the things that I wanted to bring back here. My parents were there and suddenly it was like sunday night and they were going out to dinner and wouldn't drive me back here for classes on monday. So they're like "catch the bus" or "find your own way" and I was like =(
But I got to talk to Tommy for a couple of minutes, he was so cute and wonderful and everything. Argh I miss him. And the weird thing is that I kept referring to my place here as 'home'. Like I was talking about having to get back home. Interesting.
I'm wearing this new belt I bought that I absolutely love. After I watched the ADFA parade yesterday morning with Caitlin, Debbie and Hannah, we went into civic had a really nice lunch. It cost me $8.40 for a gigantic sausage roll, a chocolate cheesecake dessert thingey and a bottle of coke. It was pretty damn good. I couldn't eat it all so the chocolate cheesecake is sitting in my fridge right now. Then Hannah had to go look at a jacket so Caitlin and I went for a little wander. We went into target and I looked at belts for a minute and fell in love with this one I found. It was so gorgeous but it didn't have a tag so i'm like "how much is it?". We asked a lady who worked there and she gave us another belt to take to the counter to ring up as the price coz it was similar and I bought some socks for $6. The belt was supposed to be $16.99 but the belt AND the socks ended up costing me $14. Wow! It was really cool. So anyway now i'm happy.
So I worry about stuff. Sometimes. More recently. Wanna see pictures of Daniel in uniform?
Casey took his tv back yesterday =( *sob sob* I was planning on keeping it forever.
Damn, managed to upload about half of the pictures from yesterday but the camera battery died. They're currently charging so i'll finish it later. I'll see what I can do with the ones I have at the moment.
