Feeling slightly better this morning. Only embarassed and a little sick. Argh.
So organising timetable for next semester. It's so exciting. I get to pick my Admin Major. So I get to pick from a cool range of subjects.
Accounting Systems & Practices Management Accounting Managing Human Resources Organisational Behaviour Advanced Management Accounting Services Marketing Financial Institutions & Markets Investments Law of Financial Services Credit & Lending Decisions International Financial Management Managing Financial Services Firms Strategic Management
Im struggling so much. I have no idea which one i should pick. Argh. I spose I should look up the prerequisites for each.
I figure i'll do Accounting Systems and Practices because it's a prerequisite for Management Accounting which is a prerequisite for Advanced Management accounting. So I might as well get started on them. =) Sucks though because it's an 8:30 lecture in the morning and the day before i finish my lectures at 8:30pm.
27 November 2006
* Need to get out of here. *
I hate being at home. Short visits are wonderful. But these past couple of days i've had nothing to do so i've been doing nothing. And I just feel like absolute crap. I play computer games and watch movies and lie in bed which gives me headaches all day which makes me sleep heavily which means I wake up with a headache too. I feel awful.
I was talking to steph about a week and a half ago and I said that if i'd have stayed living at home this year I probably would have killed myself by now. I doubt i'd have had the brass ones to acomplish it but I really think I would have tried. When i'm at home I feel like I spend the whole time waiting for something to happen, waiting for my life to happen. It was so different at uni. I was only seriously unhappy (stage of wanting to inflict bodily harm) about three times this year. And I never actually did anything, well once I tried. Here it's every day feeling worthless and like my life is meaningless. And it's really hard seeing my friends too. Because it's great to see them and I have a fantastic time, but then I come home and I often feel so much worse. I woke up at 10:30 this morning and the first thing I felt was guilt from my mum because I slept in so late. I like to sleep in. There is nothing I have to do early in the morning so I would rather stay up late and sleep the ugly sun morning away. Is that alright?
Wow, i'm emotional. No, bad choice of words. Wow, i'm enthusiastic. Still not great. Wow, i'm passionate at the moment. I dont want to have my party anymore, but I always go through phases like that so I still will have it. I miss chicken and have nobody to cuddle at night. It's hard, don't know what i'm gonna do next year. Think I might have to ask for a monkey toy for christmas. Monkey? Why? I duno, I'm in a monkey mood at the moment, it'll pass.
I'm half-way through season two of stargate for no apparent reason. I don't actually enjoy watching the episodes anymore. I just kinda sit there. It's absolutely pathetic.
On a positive note i've found a job that I want. I really really really want. It's absolutely perfect. I've got to do my resume and send it to them but I really really really want this job. I don't know why. I just think it would be fantastic. So cross your fingers for me please because my null amount of experience but overflowing amounts of charm may just cancel each other out. :)
Yes I was joking. Bout the charm not the job.
I think after living through this year there are a lot of things I would be able to do now that I couldn't do before. One I am not going to mention. Another is that GAP year that I could have done. I think cancelling was the right choice because living in england for a year by myself might have been too much for me to handle without moving to canberra first. It's kind of like a baby-step. Unfortunately I can't swap them around and do it next year. Rats.
Have to wash hair. Got sunburnt day a-fore yesterday. Saw a great play on same day. Singing, dancing, dog that could walk on two legs. Made me re-think how i've been this year and how i've changed. Made me remember some of the old things that I enjoy. Thought about the stars. Made me think about what could have happened but never did. Kinda sad but do think that if it had happened it would have been at the wrong time. Stupid timing doesn't seem to be working for me lately. Have to find necklace. Upset that it got lost. Probably be found when room finished. Want to move out of home. Just so not living with parents. Like not having to cook but would sacrifice that for peace. I love my parents dearly. But my mental health is going back to the way it always has been and I don't think that's healthy for anyone I come into contact with.
Feel a bit sick, may go throw up now.
My Photo Album
"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"
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"Glacier Climbing in NZ"
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"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"
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"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"
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"The Soda Fountain"
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"Hole in the Rock"
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"Old Cromwell Town"
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"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"
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"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"
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"Ghost Drop Girls"
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"Lounging around @ SusSEX"
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"Rosie Hammocking"
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"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"
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"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"
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"The boys bonding"
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"Caitlin & Matthew"
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"The family @ Mitch's 21st"
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"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"
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"The boys visiting Berra"
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"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"
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"Drunk on Midori"
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"Boring Bar Night"
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"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"
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"Ressies Ball '06"
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"P-top common room"
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"Mitchie's Graduation!!"
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"The 'rents were so proud"
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"Smiling Faces"
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"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"
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"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"
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"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"
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"Caitlin Snorting"
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"John & Diane @ Moose"
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"Traffic Light Party"
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"Moustache Men"
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"Pizza Boy"
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"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"
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"Johnny Boy"
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"Checkers after I.Love"
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"P.A.D"
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Tunes to keep you busy
A Quick Wilson Quiz
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
my name is wilson
I'm one of those people who prefers to be out the back of the shoe store packing away boxes and ordering shoes rather than serving customers. I'm allergic to nothing and yet
I avoid things that i'm not used to. I fell in love once and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I hold on to stereotypes of myself from years
ago not realising how much i've changed. I've taken two steps toward being independent but am nowhere near the stage most people are at my age. I crave attention but at
the same time hate getting it. I like my privacy and my space and miss having a big backyard to wander in. I want to do everything but make no effort to do anything
and then complain about it. I love to laugh and to make other people laugh at me. I can't stand being serious or when somebody else is crying and I can't do anything
to make them feel better. I want to be held when I cry. I want to be spoilt and to lie in bed forever with someone who i've given my heart to.
