13 May 2006
* Forever Young *
I went to my first ever punch party last night. The theme was heaven and hell so Caitlin, Annette, Shannon and I all wore wings and halos. We were very pretty. I had drunk half a bottle of wine before we left, and had one cowboy shot. At the punch party I had about four cups of punch at the punch party. I have no idea what was in the punch, I saw them pouring goon and passion pop in, and soft drunk and juice stuff. But it made me pretty happy. Lol.
Yes I know. I've gone to university and turned into an alcoholic and a bit of a ho... or maybe tease is a better word. I counted the number of boys I flirted with at the uni bar last night... got to about 7. Lol, thats soooo bad.
We stayed at the bar until it closed and then got the shuttle bus back home. The guy dropped us off at Arscott and since most of the people left were from my floor we all walked up together. Adam and I were chatting in the corridoor so I sat down, and then I kinda lay down... and almost went to sleep in the hallway. Hugo helped me up and I went to bed.
I'm going to leave out the minor details of the night. Cept when I get drunk I get talkative about some things that I probably shouldn't say. I told caitlin about the other night. It was thursday night, after the bar, I was up in casey's room and we were hanging out, and kind of making out, and there's a knock at the door, casey doesn't hear the first knock but I do so I stop and listen, the knock sounds again and casey does his usual "ye-ah" and it's john outside asking why casey didn't come out tonight, casey's like "this isn't a good time mate" and john leaves. It was soooooo funny. Probably funnier for me, and Caitlin found it very funny when I told her last night, but I told her the real version.
I've been thinking a lot about sex lately. No, don't laugh at that sentence, I am not turning into a teenage male. It's just been a topic in my head for a while... and in conversations. So just for the record (this is something nobody ever really states), I have NOT had sex yet. And just for the record, I am NOT looking forward to sex. I've been told by a trustworthy source that it's very painful for the girl, and that trustworthy source has also told me (from another trustworthy source of hers) that it can still be painful the second, third and fourth times. I've always thought that it would be harder having a boy who's older and who has done it before, but now that I think about it I think it could make it easier. He knows what to expect so he's not going to push it. It's not like he's dying to experience it for the first time and see what it's like. He's told me on numerous occasions that he will wait until i'm ready. Shannon says that it's best to do it in highschool to get it over and done with, so it's with someone you know. She says that the problem with uni is that everyone's going to disappear afterwards and through the breaks and everything. She actually said that I should sleep with Casey and then break up with him. Not something I would really consider. I know he'd be good about it but i kind of want it to be a long-term thing.
I am soooo going to regret posting this later. =S
Oh yeah and I have recently recounted how many guys I actually flirted with last night at uni bar and at the punch party... got to 14. Lol. It wasn't serious flirting, it was just little flirting.
Yes I know, i'm a whore. It's okay.
12 May 2006
* LISA IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY! *
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!!!!
I know blogging for me is becoming scarcer and scarcer. It's just that i'm lacking the time and the motivation to write down the things that have happened in my life recently, and some thoughts I don't exactly know how to put into words. It's confusing.
I got quite drunk last night. I had three cruisers and half a smirnoff before I got to the bar and four Vodka and Orange's at the bar. I owe caitlin the next round. We started drinking at about 10 and by 1 I was ready to go home. I probably could have stayed longer but I was turning into an unhappy emotional drunk so I took Damian up on his offer when he asked if I wanted him to walk me home.
I got back to my place, said goodbye to Damian who was headed back up to the bar, and cleaned up my room a bit. I then decide that there are things I want to say to Bryce so I called his room phone but he didn't pick up so I left a message, then I called his mobile which he did pick up and I asked him to come open the door for me.
I never said the stuff I wanted to say, I couldn't put it into real words or anything. It's a lot harder to form sentences when you're the drunkest you've ever been before.
For those people who know me well, you know that I hate it when people know things about me. Believe it or not it's different than blogging, blogging is not letting people know things about me, it's recording what has happened for me to know in the future. But even though I hate it when people know things about me I have a trememdous amount of trouble keeping my mouth shut. I'll tell people things in moments of weakness and then regret it forever. It's annoying. So anyway I hate the amount of stuff Bryce knows about me. I keep talking when i'm around him because I have no idea what to say, so I just say everything.
07 May 2006
* Kinda bad *
I was talking to Adam on msn last night and he tells me that Casey is passed out in his common room. So I go down there, we take a couple of pictures and then I wake him up and walk him back to his room. He was quite drunk but mostly just exhausted, or so he says. Anyway, I stayed for a couple of minutes and helped him hang up some of his clothes, then I go back to my room and he calls a couple of minutes later. He apologises for being a bit rude to me when he was walking me back to mine, he seems strange so I ask him whats wrong, he tells me that he couldnt think of a better excuse and he just wanted to talk to me.
We hang up but I call him back a couple of minutes later and ask him if he wants to watch an episode of supernatural with me. He comes down and falls asleep about 30 seconds into it. I had promised to wake him up but he was so tired that I decided not to.
When the episode finished I turned it off and tried to fall asleep.
He has this thing where he says and does stuff while he's sleeping. Like he can say full sentences while he's asleep, they usually make no sense whatsoever. And he automatically does stuff like putting his hand around me, without realising what he's doing. So he said some stuff, he said a couple of sentences but I only remember two of them (actually it was the same sentence twice). I'm assuming it was a combination of the drunkenness and the being asleep thing, but he said "I love you".
There's no way he would remember what he said now though.
He left at 8:30 this morning. I didn't miss him (properly) until yesterday night at about 10ish. I think it took that long from the buzz from uni bar to wear off. And now, after last night, I miss him A LOT. It's one of those annoying distracting things that won't leave my head. Argh.
