I never read over my old blog posts until they're at least a few months old. But this morning I read over my previous post and figured I should do some explaining.
I want to talk to Casey.
How annoying is that? I just want to go to his room and sit on his bed next to him and talk about nothing in particular. But I can't. He really doesn't want to talk to me at the moment. I told him about Damian. There's something about Casey but I just can't lie to him, normally i'm all good with the lying but with him it just doesn't work. I feel like he can completely see through me all the time.
So anyway I was up at 7:15 this morning. No hangover. Casey called at 9:30 and we talked about stuff and then he came down here to use the internet and we talked about more stuff and then I told him about Damian and then there was no more talking. Then he left. I called about 20minutes after and said sorry.
Now we're gonna pause this right here and i'm going to explain something to my hoards of avid readers. I absolutely NEVER say sorry. It's just not something I do. I've said sorry to my Dad after a fight once but only because mum told me I should and I expected my Dad to say sorry back. He didn't. So me actually calling Casey up and doing this whole speech about being sorry and the fact that I don't plan on repeating the action was a big thing, at least in my book.
He had nothing to say to my apology so I hung up and have only seen him once since. I was heading out of the building and he was going into the building. The conversation went like this.
Him: "Hey" Me: "Hey" Him: "How are you?" Me: "Kinda tired, and yourself?" Him: "How do you think?"
I was on my way up to see Caitlin and check my mailbox as I passed him. I was almost at the mailboxes when I saw this guy who looked like Rishi and i'm like "omg I wish all my friends were here". Coz all I need right now is a hug, a physical, not metaphorical, not cyber, hug from a real person who cares about me and all that.
Got an email from my parents this morning. They're on their way to the falklands or something at the moment. I havent spoken to them in ages.
Damian just signed into msn. So he's awake then. But i'm appearing offline as usual so he doesn't know i'm on.
Jeff is often on the Uni Radio station right, and he's got this ex-girlfriend who used to live in Arscott but now lives up at UV. Anyway, he absolutely hates her. I think the story goes that she slept with someone the day after they broke up or something. Or thats just what I heard from John and Nunny. So anyway people have been going up to this girl and calling her a whore recently because Jeff has said on the radio that he'll buy you a beer if you call her a whore. I think it's a little unfair but I admit that I have no idea of the real situation.
Meanwhile i've been listening to static on the radio for the past hour. Interesting.
I'm tossing up between cleaning up my room and doing some work in here on my bed, or going down to the lake and doing some work there. It's a dilemma. See if I work here then I may fall asleep but if I go to the lake then I may get sunburnt.
I need comfortable places. Like when I was at home if I needed somewhere to go I would go down the bush, or lie on my brother's bed, or even go sleep on the bunks if I really wanted. So when I got here I needed somewhere comfortable to be. That place pretty much ended up being Damian's room. I love his doona and his bed is comfortable. But I kinda ruined most of that last night so I need somewhere else to go. I'm also kinda comfortable in the green room now, as long as nobody else is in there, well I mean people I don't know.
Possibly I could call Adam and ask if he wants to play pool. I hate to disturb him while he's trying to work but I think I really need some company and he's my Point-of-call at the moment.
So the plan for yesterday was for Caitlin to go have a shower, then come back and her and I would cook burgers and straighten her hair and get ready in our outfits and all that. Then we'd go down to Damian's room and watch Lost and the Amazing Race and start drinking, and after the Amazing Race we'd go up to the Bar.
Well Caitlin didn't actually get down here until 8:30 so by the time we'd got ready and were starting to cook it was like 9:15. We ate our burgers in Damian's room and then went and washed up and all that. We missed most of the Amazing Race coz we had to finish getting ready. We'd finished our first drinks pretty quickly and so the two of us had to go up to my room to get more. When we got there we were ambushed. Four girls from my floor followed us into my room and sat down and started talking to us. I know most of them, Ellen is my neighbour, I say hey to Jolly and Liz in the corridoor when I pass them and Amy introduced herself. She asked why I was so shy. And suddenly the conversation moved to me having multiple boys in my room and having kissed them. Liz was like "so whats going on with you and Case?" and I was totally shocked that she had any idea, like we weren't that obvious. Okay so yes Ellen saw us at my door one time but that was about it really.
So apparently they thought I was going to get together with Fletch (my neighbour) but he's also in love with Adria. And they thought I was making out with Casey and Fletch-look-alike (Damian). I told them I was NOT making out with Damian and then two minutes later he called to ask where Caitlin and I had gotten too. Ellen stole the phone and order him and Adam to come up here so they did. I was suprised, Damian NEVER comes up to my room anymore, he's seen it like once before.
Caitlin and I were also introduced to Tom the RA. He was dressed as Dr. Harry Cooper. I havent spoken about Tom before I dont think... anyway he's gorgrous. Lol. So... uh... yeah he was pretty drunk and took about 7 tries to remember Caitlin's name. Apparently he lived in my room two years ago which is probably why I see him hanging around our floor quite a lot. He told us to talk to him later at the bar and we did. Turns out he's doing the exact same degree i'm doing at the moment and he said he'd be happy to help me out. Cool.
Who else did we see at the bar? Um... I spoke to Sam and his friend whom Damian and I played pool against at the Lighthouse one night. I remember Sam's name coz he's an Arscott man but his friend isnt.
Caitlin and I were waiting at the bar and trying to find some guy to buy our drinks for us (coz then we don't have to pay, duh). There was a guy dressed as Dr. Pepper but he was too drunk to offer, he kept looking at me tho =S. But there was another guy at the bar next to me who I just started chatting to. He was nice. I ordered his drinks coz it was cheap drinks before midnight and we got served at like 11:57.
Fletch and Damian played pool at the bar, Jeremy did too. I think they lost every game they played but meh.
I had a total of four (there was a centimeter left of my last one that I threw out coz we were gonna leave but almost four) drinks last night. I had three Smirnoff's which are 1.9 standard drinks each and a cruiser which i'm not sure about. I wasnt even overly dizzy or anything. I felt mostly fine.
Caitlin said Damian will probably remember the kiss last night. She said coz he's been waiting for it he's unlikely to forget. I hope he does remember because if he didn't I would feel guilty until I told him that it did happen.
Jeff never looks at me. Okay so he's looked at me once in like three whole situations. When Casey and I were in Casey's room and Jeff and Logan knocked on the door, Jeff didn't even look at me once. Then later hanging out in the common room he didn't give me a glance. Once, last night when he was giving me chips he looked at me. It just makes me worry. It's like a "what do you know what you can't look me in the eye?" situation.
My Photo Album
"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"
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"Glacier Climbing in NZ"
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"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"
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"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"
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"The Soda Fountain"
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"Hole in the Rock"
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"Old Cromwell Town"
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"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"
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"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"
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"Ghost Drop Girls"
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"Lounging around @ SusSEX"
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"Rosie Hammocking"
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"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"
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"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"
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"The boys bonding"
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"Caitlin & Matthew"
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"The family @ Mitch's 21st"
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"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"
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"The boys visiting Berra"
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"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"
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"Drunk on Midori"
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"Boring Bar Night"
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"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"
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"Ressies Ball '06"
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"P-top common room"
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"Mitchie's Graduation!!"
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"The 'rents were so proud"
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"Smiling Faces"
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"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"
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"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"
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"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"
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"Caitlin Snorting"
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"John & Diane @ Moose"
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"Traffic Light Party"
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"Moustache Men"
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"Pizza Boy"
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"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"
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"Johnny Boy"
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"Checkers after I.Love"
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"P.A.D"
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"Ben & Timmy"
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Tunes to keep you busy
A Quick Wilson Quiz
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
my name is wilson
I'm one of those people who prefers to be out the back of the shoe store packing away boxes and ordering shoes rather than serving customers. I'm allergic to nothing and yet
I avoid things that i'm not used to. I fell in love once and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I hold on to stereotypes of myself from years
ago not realising how much i've changed. I've taken two steps toward being independent but am nowhere near the stage most people are at my age. I crave attention but at
the same time hate getting it. I like my privacy and my space and miss having a big backyard to wander in. I want to do everything but make no effort to do anything
and then complain about it. I love to laugh and to make other people laugh at me. I can't stand being serious or when somebody else is crying and I can't do anything
to make them feel better. I want to be held when I cry. I want to be spoilt and to lie in bed forever with someone who i've given my heart to.
