The reason I blog, is that I need some way to try and make sense of everything that happens. I need to sort it out in my head and by writing it down this problem is usually solved. It stops me from being confused, or as confused.
So I had an assignment due at 5pm today, which meant I was sitting up until 2:30 in the morning trying to get it done. So i'm sitting at my computer looking out the window (coz thats pretty much what I do when i'm working) and I can hear this girl, she's either crying or laughing I can't actually tell. A couple of minutes later I see Adam out there and he's walking back and forward with this girl, and now I can tell that she is crying, she's really upset. Saying things like "fucking bastard" in German (coz she's from germany duh). They walk back and forward a couple of times and they eventually go inside and disappear.
I feel as if i'm part of some problem that I know absolutely nothing about.
I don't know how to start writing about this. I have about 6 first sentences in my head but none of them lead into actual paragraphs. It's confusing.
I suppose it started on Tuesday. I blogged previously about the weird stuff with Bryce and I know that I took the post away but i'm hoping you've read it or you might not understand. For those who have just joined us, he has a problem but it's only a minor problem so he doesn't want to raise the issue because that will make it a major problem.
It was weird when we spoke for a minute on Wednesday. He was just coming back from work and on his way up to see his friend who is staying with him at the moment. She's up for 5 days (wed to sundayish), sleeping on his floor. #1 strange was the fact that when his brother came up I was introduced and everything.
So I couldn't stand the un-talking on thursday. I was stressed and I got like absolutely no work done on Wednesday. So I left him a voicemail on Thursday night at about 10 or 11 ish telling him that I wanted to talk about stuff to make it un-weird. He doesn't often check his voicemail so he didn't reply. At about 1amish he was on msn so I told him that I sent him a voicemail. He asked if I wanted to talk now and I said it was as good as time as any so he came to visit. I thought it a little strange that he brought his Pyjamas but I ignored it.
We had a conversation.
The conversation had a couple of paragraphs. Started with the "this is not about sex" one, briefly touched on the "what is this that we're doing?" and then ended with the "I don't want to make it a big issue because it's not".
So about half an hour later we were kind of okay, not absolutely great. He told me that because he had his friend staying I probably wouldn't see him very often. That's why I found the brother thing interesting. I can meet the brother but not the friend who is a girl.
Apparently he got plastered that night. I think I heard him in the courtyard at some point. Shannon told me he was wandering around her floor drunk at some ungodly hour. I get a call from him at 3:30AM (I had just fallen asleep at 2:30) where he asks if I wrote a note on his door. I'm like "huh?", so I tell him I know nothing about it and then I go back to sleep.
I saw him for 2 minutes today, Caitlin and John and I were going to find Jeremy and see if he was coming out tonight but there were a mass of people in the R-top common room that we had to walk through so Caitlin and I waited at the back while John went to see him. Bryce was there at the back and we exchanged a number of syllabls (yes I know I dont know how to spell that). It was odd. Even caitlin said it was odd after we left the common room.
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So lets try and get to the bottom of this shall we?
Adam is a very useful source of information, he seemed to know a large amount of details about the events of the night. Talking to Adam in the cab back from Civic tonight he promptly informs me that the girl he was talking to in the courtyard (the one who was all upset) was Bryce's friend who's staying with him. Interesting, no? Anyway she was actually angry at him. He was the reason she was crying and so upset.
From what I could gather from Adam's scatty details Bryce told her that he was going to the bathroom and then disappeared for about half an hour...
... i think that was when he went to my room.
Apparently he was supposed to go out with her or something but didn't. So anyway, she was completely pissed btw, after Adam and she left the courtyard Adam took her up to Bryce's room coz she left her phone in there, apparently he still was not back.
I really don't know what happened next, or anytime after.
But at some point before 3:30 in the morning when he called me, someone wrote "Player" on his door. He rushed out when he saw it, apparently asked his friend if she wrote it, then asked adam, then called me.
Now for the record he has told me NONE of this information. This is all stuff i've gathered from gazing out my window and my chivalrous knight adam (who gave me his coat for some of the night tonight). He didn't even tell me what was written on his door.
My interpretation of the series of events. The things that my mind picks up on: - he asked her if she wrote "player" first. - he asked adam second, who he knew was talking to his friend - things were weird in the common room this night - he doesn't seem to want me to meet this friend.
I suppose he's really not my type.
My Photo Album
"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"
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"Glacier Climbing in NZ"
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"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"
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"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"
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"The Soda Fountain"
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"Hole in the Rock"
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"Old Cromwell Town"
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"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"
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"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"
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"Ghost Drop Girls"
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"Lounging around @ SusSEX"
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"Rosie Hammocking"
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"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"
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"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"
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"The boys bonding"
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"Caitlin & Matthew"
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"The family @ Mitch's 21st"
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"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"
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"The boys visiting Berra"
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"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"
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"Drunk on Midori"
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"Boring Bar Night"
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"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"
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"Ressies Ball '06"
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"P-top common room"
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"Mitchie's Graduation!!"
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"The 'rents were so proud"
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"Smiling Faces"
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"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"
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"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"
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"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"
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"Caitlin Snorting"
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"John & Diane @ Moose"
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"Traffic Light Party"
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"Moustache Men"
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"Pizza Boy"
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"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"
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"Johnny Boy"
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"Checkers after I.Love"
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"P.A.D"
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"Ben & Timmy"
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Tunes to keep you busy
A Quick Wilson Quiz
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
my name is wilson
I'm one of those people who prefers to be out the back of the shoe store packing away boxes and ordering shoes rather than serving customers. I'm allergic to nothing and yet
I avoid things that i'm not used to. I fell in love once and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I hold on to stereotypes of myself from years
ago not realising how much i've changed. I've taken two steps toward being independent but am nowhere near the stage most people are at my age. I crave attention but at
the same time hate getting it. I like my privacy and my space and miss having a big backyard to wander in. I want to do everything but make no effort to do anything
and then complain about it. I love to laugh and to make other people laugh at me. I can't stand being serious or when somebody else is crying and I can't do anything
to make them feel better. I want to be held when I cry. I want to be spoilt and to lie in bed forever with someone who i've given my heart to.
