The internet's been down on res for the past couple of days. I emailed casey just before it went down, It didn't feel like a moment of weakness which is what I would have expected to be the cause of contact with him. It was more realisation. It was just a short email saying that I was reading old blog posts and remembering some of the shit that happened between us and remembering the good things too. Well he replied. And it wasn't very pretty. And now i'm feeling like shit all over again.
The more and more I see him this year (and the end of last year) the more I worry that my friend john is an ass. He has a lot of opinions, and I am learning not to care about them.
I am dying to see my family, and to just be back home. I'm working this saturday (the third weekend in a row) which will be good and it shall be nice and busy and I will hopefully not have to dust or take the rubbish out (which is scary) and I can just concentrate on work.
Worst part? I can see myself with Casey. Like in the big-time future. Like travelling and taking the kids to football practice and helping them with their homework and going out to the pub (not with the kids). And going out to nice dinners and living in Melbourne (which i wouldn't mind doing now that I really think about it). And learning to cook. And running my own business. And being home at night with him and snuggling in front of the tv watching some crappy show but watching it because we're together.
But nobody stays married to their first boyfriend/girlfriend. So me seeing all those things worries me. I mean if we were to stay together for a (quite large) number of years then we couldn't take the next step and get married because he would have been the only guy i've ever dated. And that means the marriage would not work out. And I couldn't bare that happening. So perhaps being apart is a good thing, and maybe one day we'll cross paths again when we're ready. Or when i'm ready. It's just so hard to let it go.
My Photo Album
"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"
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"Glacier Climbing in NZ"
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"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"
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"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"
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"The Soda Fountain"
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"Hole in the Rock"
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"Old Cromwell Town"
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"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"
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"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"
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"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"
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"Ghost Drop Girls"
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"Lounging around @ SusSEX"
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"Rosie Hammocking"
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"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"
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"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"
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"The boys bonding"
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"Caitlin & Matthew"
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"The family @ Mitch's 21st"
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"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"
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"The boys visiting Berra"
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"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"
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"Drunk on Midori"
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"Boring Bar Night"
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"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"
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"Ressies Ball '06"
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"P-top common room"
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"Mitchie's Graduation!!"
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"The 'rents were so proud"
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"Smiling Faces"
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"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"
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"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"
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"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"
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"Caitlin Snorting"
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"John & Diane @ Moose"
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"Traffic Light Party"
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"Moustache Men"
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"Pizza Boy"
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"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"
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"Johnny Boy"
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"Checkers after I.Love"
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"P.A.D"
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"Ben & Timmy"
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Tunes to keep you busy
A Quick Wilson Quiz
"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray
TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea
SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be
PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat
PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!
EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!
EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat
Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today
Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!
MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day
MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black
ENSEMBLE
Yeah!
MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat
ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!
ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
my name is wilson
I'm one of those people who prefers to be out the back of the shoe store packing away boxes and ordering shoes rather than serving customers. I'm allergic to nothing and yet
I avoid things that i'm not used to. I fell in love once and to be loved is the most wonderful feeling in the entire world. I hold on to stereotypes of myself from years
ago not realising how much i've changed. I've taken two steps toward being independent but am nowhere near the stage most people are at my age. I crave attention but at
the same time hate getting it. I like my privacy and my space and miss having a big backyard to wander in. I want to do everything but make no effort to do anything
and then complain about it. I love to laugh and to make other people laugh at me. I can't stand being serious or when somebody else is crying and I can't do anything
to make them feel better. I want to be held when I cry. I want to be spoilt and to lie in bed forever with someone who i've given my heart to.
