02 June 2007

* The night turned completely into a pancake. Flat. *

It's taken me 8 hours to pick my timetable for next semester. You would know that if you have facebook and have been on it recently.

So last night was a bust boy-wise. I didn't even know he was on Arscott until the fire alarm went off and everyone had to go outside. He kept walking away from me at the bar so I was like standing around by myself. Good thing I know a gazillion people at the bar these days so I can always really find someone to talk to. I danced with Ben for a little bit but then he went off to find Timmy so I went walking.

Caitlin and I were going to cook pancakes beforehand for everyone. We planned them to get to arscott at about 8:30 so they could be late dinner/dessert. Well they didn't arrive until past 9 and when they got here they said it was too late for pancakes and we shouldn't bother cooking them. I was slightly annoyed because the whole plan for the night started with pancakes, I was ready to cook at 8:30 and I hadn't eaten dinner coz i'd been studying with Silvia till 8. So I made one batch and it wasn't exciting and I cooked it all by myself and I was sad.

Timmy crashed at my place, he just assumed he was going to, he didn't ask but I kinda assumed he was going to also. We cooked pasta when we got back. I had to walk home in my socks coz my boots were hurting. I got more affection at the bar from Ben than from Timmy, the guy I am 'going out' with ('going out' is a term he used in a sms sent to myself, we haven't actually been out anywhere together unless you count the bar where it's really more like we coincidentally end up at the same place)

And btw there has been no sex. I don't know why I feel the need to make sure everybody knows that, but John doesn't believe me and it's driving me crazy. He wonders how we've spent so many nights in the same room and haven't ended up doing it. He's silly.

I think sex is no good without love. Okay sure I haven't done any research into the matter, the only guy i've slept with I was completely in love with and he was completely in love with me. Maybe I should rephrase then.

Love should come before sex. Love should come before kissing. I think first you should have friendship, then there should be falling in love, then a kiss, then eventually sex. I know that doesn't happen in probably any conventional relationships but I think it's something to strive for. No I do not love Timmy, therefore no sex. I also have other sex rules, want to know? No it's not gross or anything.

Sex Rule #1
Must be in official relationship eg boyfriend/girlfriend capacity

Sex Rule #2
Must be at least 3 months after first kiss (it probably doesn't seem like long, or maybe it does, but it's just time time i've picked)

Sex Rule #3
No socks

I think #3 is the most important one. Sex is just weird with socks on. You can't be wearing socks if you're not wearing pants. Too strange. It's like an old-person thing. Ergh.
Wow I seem to be talking about sex a lot. Oh well.

So i've been wearing my heart necklace that Casey gave me for christmas lately. The chain it was on kept coming undone (a sign maybe?) so I put it on another chain but last night at the bar I pulled the chain accidentally and it broke (possible also a sign). I was at the shops today so I bought another chain. :) This is me sticking it to fate and saying "fuck you! I'm holding onto this relationship for as long as I fucking well want and you are going to just sit there and watch me. I don't care how bad it is for me, or what John says, or how mean i'm being to Timmy. I'm gonna screw up my life and feel like shit and there's nothing you can do about it"

Think i'm going to change the photos on my wall next semester. Print off some new ones and stick them up and take some down coz I have heaps from just a couple of events. Argh its freezing and I have to go to the bathroom.

Okay im back. With a jacket and an empty bladder. All is good.

I saw this awesome ring in Prouds today. It was really pretty and fantastic and I want it. But its like $170 and i think jewellery is much better when somebody buys it for you. So if you are my friend and feel like spending lots and lots of money on me then ask little John or Caitlin to point out the ring to you :) My birthday is only 128 days away :) :)

Hehehe I cooked pasta while drunk last night. I musnt've been too bad. I managed not to burn myself. Ooh Joe called me sexy last night. :) Awesome! He didn't say it to my face either, so he wasn't trying to get into my pants or anything, he was talking to someone else about me. I've never thought of myself as being able to be 'sexy' before. I think sometimes when my hair is right and i'm wearing something nice I can be 'cute' or maybe even 'pretty' if my hair is really good and it's kinda dark. Never thought of myself as 'sexy' or even 'hott'. It's too weird.

I have four days of class next semester :( It's crappy. I've managed to have my timetable so I get all day wednesday off and mondays I start at 4:30 so I can keep working the same times i'm working this semester. S'long as I can get from work to uni in 30minutes on mondays. It's possible. But the stupid 'Investments' lecture is on Fridays which sucks coz I shall be mostly hungover for it. But I think it'll be good too because it means i'll be forced to have quieter nights and actually do uni work on fridays. I only have one tute on thursdays so thats good but it's in the middle of the day and I can't really change it so I can't work then. Good though coz again I shall be forced to walk to uni and then I can stay there and work work work. :)

Class is from 4:30 to 8pm on mondays
9:30-6:30 with a 2hr gap and a 1hr gap on tuesdays
one hour on thurdays
and two hours on fridays
awesome! Tis as long as I get all my first choices though.

I'm doing two subjects the same as Silvia but I will probably only be in one of her tutorials coz i cant have my 'leadership' one when she's having hers coz I shall be @ work probably.
Can't do the stats subject that I wanted to do coz it would mean i'd have class mondays and thursdays and tuesdays and wednesdays which means never being able to work. Maybe next year or something.

I haven't cried in a couple of days. Since last Sunday actually. It's nice not to be crying all the time. On sunday I was bawling bad and then I ended up falling asleep. I think that's a good way to stop crying. It's kinda like you end it. Like by falling asleep you end the sadness and wake up and everything is all new. Like rain during the nighttime.

I've just been thinking. And geez i'm glad there's no chance i'd have to date myself. I think it would drive me absolutely bonkers. The same reason i'm glad I don't have to be friends with myself. I'm happy enough moving through life completely detesting my own self. It's other people who have to/choose to be nice to me.

I should be in bed. I'm gonna go sleep now and set my alarm to force myself to wake up in the morning and turn it off before getting back into bed and falling asleep again. It's just one of the subtle ways I show myself that i'm a bad person.

Anyway please leave me some comments, I know my posts aren't exactly input-inspiring. Hows my spelling going? And my punctuation? I know it sucks but maybe you can tell me exactly where I suck so I can try and make this blog more "smart-person friendly".

12:37 am | |

"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray

TRACY
You cant stop an avalanche
As it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl
But ya know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet
But i just cannot stand still
Cause the world keeps spinnin'
Round and round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way

TRACY & LINK
Cause you can't stop the beat

Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today

'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why

And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!

PENNY
You can't stop a river
As it rushes to the sea

SEAWEED
You can try and stop the hands of time
But ya know it just can't be

PENNY
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed,
I'll call the N Double A C P
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way

PENNY & SEAWEED
Cause you can't stop the beat

PENNY & SEAWEED
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today

'Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
What I'm dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
Cause you cant stop the beat!

EDNA
You cant stop my happiness
Cause i like the way i am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork
When i see a christmas ham
So if you don't like the way i look
Well, i |ust don't give a damn!

EDNA & ENSEMBLE
Cause the world keeps spinning
Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way

EDNA & COMPANY
'Cause you cant stop the beat

Ever since this old world began
A woman found out if she shook it
She could shake up a man
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
The best that i can today

Cause you cant stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna
But i never ask why
And if you try to hold me down
I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you cant stop the beat!

MOTORMOUTH
Oh oh oh
You can't stop today
As it comes speeding down the track
Child, yesterday is hist'ry
And it's never coming back

MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause tomorrow is a brand new day

MOTORMOUTH
And it don't know white from black

ENSEMBLE
Yeah!

MOTORMOUTH & ENSEMBLE
'Cause the world keeps spinning
'Round and 'round
And my heart's keeping time
To the speed of sound
I was lost til i heard the drums
Then i found my way
'Cause you cant stop the beat

ALL
Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman liked to shake it
On a saturday night
And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it
With all my might today
'Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
They can try to stop ths paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
You can't stop the beat!

Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah
Aah, aah, aah

ALL
Ever since we first saw the sun
A man and woman like to shake it when the day is done
But we're gonna shake and shimmy it
And have some fun
For today!

ALL
Cause you can't stop
The motion of the ocean
Or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise
We're dreaming of
But you cannot stop the rhythm
Of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!
You can't stop the beat!!

02 June 2007

* The night turned completely into a pancake. Flat. *

My Photo Album

"Having lunch in a park in Zealand"

"Glacier Climbing in NZ"

"Jet Boating with the family in NZ"

"Making a card tower on the ferry crossing in NZ"

"The Soda Fountain"

"Hole in the Rock"

"Old Cromwell Town"

"On top of Franz Josef Glacier"

"Kiss for the Rock'n'Roll Gender Bender"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Chev, Alicia and John"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Alicia and Me"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Marissa"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Phillllllliiiiippp"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Timmy"

"Heaven'n'Hell - John John"

"Heaven'n'Hell - Another John"

"Ghost Drop Girls"

"Lounging around @ SusSEX"

"Rosie Hammocking"

"Kath fell asleep in the sunshine"

"Caitlin's Bday @ Moose"

"The boys bonding"

"Caitlin & Matthew"

"The family @ Mitch's 21st"

"Case & I @ Op Shop '06"

"The boys visiting Berra"

"Chicken & his Daddy watching the footy"

"Drunk on Midori"

"Boring Bar Night"

"Caitlin and Me at the Bar"

"Ressies Ball '06"

"P-top common room"

"Mitchie's Graduation!!"

"The 'rents were so proud"

"Smiling Faces"

"Kath's first visit @ the bus stop"

"Damo's Birthday Dinner '06"

"Yummy Yummy Yummy Pasta"

"Caitlin Snorting"

"John & Diane @ Moose"

"Traffic Light Party"

"Moustache Men"

"Pizza Boy"

"I tried to eat Caitlin's ear"

"Johnny Boy"

"Checkers after I.Love"

"P.A.D"

"Ben & Timmy"

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A Quick Wilson Quiz

"You can't stop the beat" - Hairspray

my name is wilson

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